I can’t make you love me if you don’t. You can’t make your heart feel something that it won’t.

I’m going to die alone, a miserable alcoholic bitch. Yup.

~*~ So we’ve put an end to it this time. I’m no longer yours, and you’re no longer mine. You said this hill looks far too steep, and I’m not even sure it’s me you wanna keep. It’s been seventeen days without you in my reach and the only time I’ve touched you is in my sleep. But time has changed nothing at all, you’re still the only one that feels like home. I’ve tried cutting the ropes, and I’ve let you go but you’re still the only one that feels like home. ~*~

I’d call, but you know I’m running on empty. The late nights and the long drives start to get to me. I’m just so tired. I spent this year as a ghost and I’m not sure what I’m looking for. I’m a voice on a phone that you rarely answer anymore. I came in here alone, but that doesn’t scare me like it did seven months ago. I spent this year as a ghost and I’m not sure where home is anymore.

I’m supposed to not care. I’m supposed to move on in life without shedding a single tear. Not supposed to have these fears. You make it look so easy to walk away, after all this time.. please tell me, is loving me a crime? You used to care, you used to tell it, even though I could tell with the way you showed it. We used to be so good to eachother; please tell me how this went so wrong, from sweet to so sour. You treated me like the prettiest of flowers, you picked me. Now in a crowd, I can feel our raging animosity. The most familiar strangers in one room. I can see you dealing with your fumes. You hurt me, I hurt you, I tried to, and in the end I looked like the fool. You lured me in when I knew you weren’t what I need, I fucking fell, you tore my heart now tell me, can you see me bleed? Do you hear those cries for help in your sleep? It’s just me being weak. Wake up from that nightmare, turn over, its okay, because you still have your sweetpea. If I knew all along, I never would have carried anything on. Babe, you did me so wrong. I know I say I’ll be gone, but why is it taking me so long?

I was feeling sad, can’t help looking back. Highways flew by. Run, run away, no sense of time; like you to stay. Want to keep you inside.

What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will makeyou hurt